Tonight, as I sit talking to friends, I am currently confronted with tears. Another cloak of ignorance have been removed from my eyes! I have been given a knowledge of what I truly fear. I knew my fear had something to do with society, because, let us face it, most of our fears are caused by some aspect of society. Is it not? Often people have told me that I fear what people will think about me.
I have constantly fought this idea because I genuinely feel that I could care less what people think about me. People think many things about many people and it would be rather foolish to concern yourself with every aspect of what people think. It becomes quite tiresome! However, I now understand... it is not what people think that I fear.
I fear what people will not think. Will they not think I am who I desire to be? That is my fear. That's what stops me from pursuing that true happiness. Yes!
That's the new tear filled insight for tonight.
Loving to Dwell,
Ae'Jay Mitchell
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Father! Why do these words sound so nasty?
Yesterday, at least I believe it was yesterday, (Days all flow together when one's mind is constantly in motion) I had an intriguing conversation with my great friend Jenny Malarkey. She recently saw the phenomenal show Spring Awakening on its tour in Pittsburg only to be, at the end, confronted with an older viewers arguments about the how gratuitous the nudity and sexuality was in the show. Now, of course, everyone is entitled to their opinion, and it will not be my practice to belittle or debunk anyone's cognitions, just to present you with my thoughts.
Why do we find nudity and sexuality gratuitous? Why is the human body such a naughty, sinful, taboo thing? My senior year of high school I was in the musical HAIR with the Centenary College Theater. I played the roles of both Wolf and Hud in a very creative blend of the characters. This show changed my life in many ways, but for this writing, i will focus on how it redefined for me the ideas of sexuality. In the song "Sodomy," my character asked, "Father, why do these words sound so nasty?" This question was on extremely poignant for me. Why do they sound so nasty? Because society has labeled them as nasty. The human body and need for sexuality has been hushed and masked throughout much of ... well, humanity. Why is this?
I feel it is because we fear the power of human passion. Passion questions! Passion disturbs! Passion pushes against the purposed status quo! Passion is the foundation of dreams! So sexuality becomes labeled as a wrong, as an unspeakable in order to guilt us away from exploring our true passions, our personal needs for stimulating arousal. In doing so, however, we destroy the purity of sexuality. It becomes abused and ugly; it becomes a distorted and dismembered... a rage against the screams of "DON'T HAVE SEX." Sexuality is turned immoral by the very instution that attempts to keep it moral. Instead of SCREAMING DON'T HAVE SEX, we should be yelling CHERISH AND RESPECT YOUR SEXUALITY! Sex is only an act of expressing your sexuality with one that dwells in the multiple possibilities your passion leads you towards. In beginning to create within myself a strong love and connection to my sexuality, I have become more deeply connected to the power of my human passions and able to, without ignorance, delve into a pursuit of love. Instead of desire to rage against leading my decisions, I ride on the need to dwell in the oo sooo taboo, naughty, and sinful love of my sexuality, relabeling it as the beautiful and brilliant masterpiece that it indeed is.
Continue to Dwell,
Ae'Jay Mitchell
Why do we find nudity and sexuality gratuitous? Why is the human body such a naughty, sinful, taboo thing? My senior year of high school I was in the musical HAIR with the Centenary College Theater. I played the roles of both Wolf and Hud in a very creative blend of the characters. This show changed my life in many ways, but for this writing, i will focus on how it redefined for me the ideas of sexuality. In the song "Sodomy," my character asked, "Father, why do these words sound so nasty?" This question was on extremely poignant for me. Why do they sound so nasty? Because society has labeled them as nasty. The human body and need for sexuality has been hushed and masked throughout much of ... well, humanity. Why is this?
I feel it is because we fear the power of human passion. Passion questions! Passion disturbs! Passion pushes against the purposed status quo! Passion is the foundation of dreams! So sexuality becomes labeled as a wrong, as an unspeakable in order to guilt us away from exploring our true passions, our personal needs for stimulating arousal. In doing so, however, we destroy the purity of sexuality. It becomes abused and ugly; it becomes a distorted and dismembered... a rage against the screams of "DON'T HAVE SEX." Sexuality is turned immoral by the very instution that attempts to keep it moral. Instead of SCREAMING DON'T HAVE SEX, we should be yelling CHERISH AND RESPECT YOUR SEXUALITY! Sex is only an act of expressing your sexuality with one that dwells in the multiple possibilities your passion leads you towards. In beginning to create within myself a strong love and connection to my sexuality, I have become more deeply connected to the power of my human passions and able to, without ignorance, delve into a pursuit of love. Instead of desire to rage against leading my decisions, I ride on the need to dwell in the oo sooo taboo, naughty, and sinful love of my sexuality, relabeling it as the beautiful and brilliant masterpiece that it indeed is.
Continue to Dwell,
Ae'Jay Mitchell
Thursday, May 21, 2009
To Dwell
Dwelling - noun: The act of living or continuing in a given condition or state.
In- preposition: Used to indicate motion or direction from outside to a point within.
Possibility - noun: The fact of being possible.
So, I am sure you all knew what those three words meant on the surface and that you all are quite perturbed that you can not get back the thirty seconds it took for you to read three definitions of well-known words. However, there is a purpose.
The combination of those three simple words have redefined who I am as a person, an actor, a singer, a dancer, a writer, a budding neuroscientist, and psychologist. In fact, those three words have made me aware that all of those ostensibly different masks of interest can all be grouped under one unifying umbrella known as creativity. It is through this creativity that I find my passion for performance and research, for science and arts. It is through this creativity that I can accept both life and death as beautiful and grotesque. It is through this creativity where I find strength to live and continue in a condition whereby movement takes me from an outside place to a point within the certainty that the uncertain exists.
I ask you, as you take this expressive journey with me, to come with "open hearts, open minds, and fair-minded word" willing to embrace the various tastes of possibility.
Let's Dwell,
Ae'Jay Mitchell
In- preposition: Used to indicate motion or direction from outside to a point within.
Possibility - noun: The fact of being possible.
So, I am sure you all knew what those three words meant on the surface and that you all are quite perturbed that you can not get back the thirty seconds it took for you to read three definitions of well-known words. However, there is a purpose.
The combination of those three simple words have redefined who I am as a person, an actor, a singer, a dancer, a writer, a budding neuroscientist, and psychologist. In fact, those three words have made me aware that all of those ostensibly different masks of interest can all be grouped under one unifying umbrella known as creativity. It is through this creativity that I find my passion for performance and research, for science and arts. It is through this creativity that I can accept both life and death as beautiful and grotesque. It is through this creativity where I find strength to live and continue in a condition whereby movement takes me from an outside place to a point within the certainty that the uncertain exists.
I ask you, as you take this expressive journey with me, to come with "open hearts, open minds, and fair-minded word" willing to embrace the various tastes of possibility.
Let's Dwell,
Ae'Jay Mitchell
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